I don't know what's come over me. I think I'm slipping into a minor depression. I've been so down lately. I feel like I'm waiting for something to happen, I'm just not sure what it is yet. I'm lonely. All I really want is just to be held.
I've been listening to a lot of Manchester Orchestra lately. It's extremely soothing. I've also been drinking a lot of herbal tea and reading more. I just want a calm environment.
Today I was feeling particularly shitty. I actually broke down and cried at lunch. Bethany cheered me up a little bit though. She's sweet. When I got home to get my mind off things, I went on a major cleaning spree. I cleaned EVERYTHING. I dusted, Windexed, vacuumed, cleaned out my closet, cleaned out my drawer, dehumidified, and cleaned my sheets. I also ordered a lovely dress off the Abercrombie & Fitch website. I'll post pictures whenever it comes in the mail.
I applied at Andy's yesterday. I really hope they call me back soon. I want to get my makeup kit started asap.
This weekend I have to go to Winston Salem. I'm not thrilled about that at all. At least I can work on my tan by the pool. I'm getting quite tan. I may dye my hair brown again this weekend. I hope I can get an appointment somewhere.
I have never needed a joint so badly in my life.
Thanks for sharing what you post to your readers laura. Everythings gonna be okay hun, Lifes unfair, sometimes you just have to think that everything happens for a reason. It may be a good one or a bad one, but life is a cycle, sometimes your on the top and sometimes your at the bottom.That's why sometimes Im afraid of being happy because I know after sadness would be next. Cheer up hun, a lot of people loves you a lot
ReplyDeletehugs, Kim