I don't know what's come over me. I think I'm slipping into a minor depression. I've been so down lately. I feel like I'm waiting for something to happen, I'm just not sure what it is yet. I'm lonely. All I really want is just to be held.
I've been listening to a lot of Manchester Orchestra lately. It's extremely soothing. I've also been drinking a lot of herbal tea and reading more. I just want a calm environment.
Today I was feeling particularly shitty. I actually broke down and cried at lunch. Bethany cheered me up a little bit though. She's sweet. When I got home to get my mind off things, I went on a major cleaning spree. I cleaned EVERYTHING. I dusted, Windexed, vacuumed, cleaned out my closet, cleaned out my drawer, dehumidified, and cleaned my sheets. I also ordered a lovely dress off the Abercrombie & Fitch website. I'll post pictures whenever it comes in the mail.
I applied at Andy's yesterday. I really hope they call me back soon. I want to get my makeup kit started asap.
This weekend I have to go to Winston Salem. I'm not thrilled about that at all. At least I can work on my tan by the pool. I'm getting quite tan. I may dye my hair brown again this weekend. I hope I can get an appointment somewhere.
I have never needed a joint so badly in my life.